time spent, time wasted

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, sitting on the train or in my room or at my desk at work... just sitting and thinking. And it hasn't gotten me anywhere, really. I come up with ideas of essays I want to write, but I don't write them. I think of tasks I need to complete, but I don't do them. I even - finally - got a job offer after spending hours and months assembling applications and going to interviews and thinking about what I want out of life and assessing the types of things I would be qualified for, and I don't think I am going to take it.

I wondered today whether I have that condition that they are talking about these days - infomania. It is actually a real thing now, they've done studies. Basically, a person receives too much information at a constant rate and it causes the IQ to decrease, by an average of ten points. I think email and the internet are making me sick. Maybe, though, if knowing is half the battle, I could be halfway toward normal again. Let's hope so.

I'm going to go write some lists and stare into space now. That should get me somewhere.